on random 5.

assalamualaikum wbt.
look at my previous post. how distance that is.

1. Blog used to be my best friend. still is. but we are not that close anymore. not even my private blog. the feeling isn't the same like when no one knows what blogs are and close people doesn't know that i own one.
2. That 'insecure' feelings that i felt thinking that the whole world is reading my blog [i know i'm being delusional] and can predicts my life. so, ended up writing something and saved it as a draft. or probably, joted it down only in my organizer, word pad, notebooks etc.
3. It's a habit. Blog, facebook and now, twitter. It feels so awkward these days to post something in facebook after so long. I've been on twitter for quite sometimes, already. People think that you are normal until you read their tweets. lol :P
4. Many people told me to trust them, to have faith in them. Apparently, most of them sorta betrayed me. i am not mad, really :D :D but i just don't share anymore. 
5. despite the 1 to 4, i appear to be completely normal. you can rest assure with that statement. haha. 

ps: i am really in need of caffeine. as much as it is hard to tell your pt to start dieting, it is that hard for me to control my caffeine intake. the withdrawal symptoms are driving me nuts..hm hm hm hm. currently, once a day and seriously planning to reduce it again. wish me luck :)